I thought if i work here i don't have to be so stressful about money. But, as for the time commitment in my personal stuffs are all sacrificed.
This is the only job that i always do my best in everything everyday. One of the training, they ask me have i thought of resigning before? I said" No, So far everything is still very perfect for me. Everybody is treating me so well. And i have never thought to resigning because of anything before. And i hope i won't have this kinds of thoughts at all"
Things got so stressful as the days goes by. Salary decreasing. Spending unless money on renting gowns. Those occasion are supposed to be free and easy for everyone. With no restriction. People are smart enough to dress appropriate at different occasion, Why is it a must? "We" outside earning at 2. and we are spending as if we are earning at 4 an above like the rest of you inside.Off day are fixed and impossible to be change once it is sent up. Else you will get a fined. WHAT?! We request off day to be change for a reason. We get fined for everything. Some is reasonable an some is not! Key wrong details, we get fined. Every body make mistakes! You don't tell me you have never make an mistakes in your entire life before?
My erjie is being very nice to me every since i came in. I consistent hit my own target. With good results every month till now. I don't wanna disappoint her. She have high hopes on me. When other people is looking down on me saying it is only the first semester, i'll drop soon. But she told them to wait and see. She wanna prove them wrong. Because of this i even more stress. I'm that kind of person who likes to do whatever i can with my very best to get a good result. i don't need any one to put so much hope and faith in me. i will get even more stress and start to fear and failed.
When i first step in here, i told myself i can stay for as long as i could. Because of the pay, i can stop worrying on everything and stop being poor. But i'm wrong. i'm being poorer and poorer as days goes by. as each pay slip i get every month. Dropping and dropping.
No fixed end work time. end work at 9pm is just saying only. They finished, they run. We have to stay back to settle everything. I understand this is what a counter should do. I need some time commitment to my own stuffs. immune system getting worst. Being so stressful and being so unhappy everyday. I'm in a midst of giving up already. Break outs, hair dropping even more. always having a feel to cry myself out every day after work. Time is not enough for me. I miss going swimming with my younger brother in the past. At least i get to exercise.
Now, i feel it is not worth to make yourself sick because of work. I have to keep myself healthy. Normal working life and normal resting day with normal pay. That will keep me happy.
Mum is working with me she is working from 5plus to 9plus. People there took her for granted. She is being nice to help them sometimes. But 她们却把她的随便当做方便。Continuously asking her to do their duites and they went home on time when my mum have something else to do which is suppose to be her duties. Hello~ Ladies. Have a heart. You have your own duties and my mum have her's. Though my mum end work 30mins later then you guys. But that doesn't mean she can finish everything. She doesn't have overtime pay. You guys have. Some times, 9.20pm already she also haven't finish sweeping or even mopping the freaking floor. Can't you do it on your own instead on leaving at 9pm sharp everyday?
Leader said before, my mum will help u all to do "IF MY MUM IS FREE". Does anyone of you guys the eyes got any problems? Do you guys know what is the meaning of "FREE TIME?" "有空的时候?" Fuck you all seriously bytches. Ever since i came in here, i'm being so naggy and ranting everyday. And even start to scold vulgarities again! Worst state even....
DnD compulsory make-up type. So exaggerated. Speechless.
I am thankful to have a boyfriend who have so high tolerance in me with all my stupid-ness ranting and being
so dumb in almost everything and he still love me so much. I truly deeply madly love him so much.
